Thought Vomit

I am having blog issues.  Don't know what's going on.  Grr.

The List

I have a list of things I intend to do before I graduate.  It was first Bauer's idea at the very beginning of this year, freshman year.  I like the idea, so I stole it and made a list of my own.  One by one I'm crossing off some of the things off of my list.  Now, I'm not about to post the entire list here because it's MY list and no one has read it.  It's like my goals and stupid things I want to do, you know?  So yes, I'm crossed off some items this year.  For one, I have talked about myself in third person for an entire day (now I just have to talk in French for an entire day-- still not fluent enough to do this).  I've stayed up all night (on a school night).  I've watched movies (Bauer's birthday) for 24 hours straight (that was hard).  What haven't I done?  I haven't bought or tried on anything at A&F (I can't believe I put this on the list).  I haven't dyed my hair a CRAZY color (what color should I go with?).  I haven't started a band (kind of given up on this one).  I haven't finished knitting that tank top I've been working on since 7th grade.  I haven't done a lot of things (those are the meaningless random ones, there are actually ones with a point on there too).  I'm TRYING to learn Japanese (it's really really hard, but I'm getting there, one hiragana at a time).  One way that I'm tracking some of my goals is on www.43things.com.  That isn't my list, however.  It's more just ways that I want to live my life   (long term).  For example, getting published (a poem in Creative Kids doesn't count haha), being happy, and telling the truth are long term things.  Like, more of life goals than high school ones.  So, what's on your list?  If you make one comment with some of the items on it!   

Stupid Schools

Argh I'm in a really bad mood today.  Like, for so many reasons.  It's like lots of little stuff.  One of my friends is going to the school I transferred from.  Another is going to a boarding school.  My three other friends from middle school that go to my high school all want to go to this private school.  It seems like everyone is leaving my school.  Ironically, it was the school I went to (partially) because the majority of my friends were going there.  Now they're all like 'we want to leave because we hate this school'.  Great.  Just great.  I like it as a school.  I wish they'd realize it's not as bad as they think it is.  It's high school.  Dammit.  Not to mention the fact that I found out the results of a writing contest to be published that my friend and I had submitted to today.  Neither of us won.  I really hate rejection.  And like I just want there to be less drama.  Like my close girl friends can stand my close guy friends.  And sometimes vice versa.  Can't they all just suck it up and be civil?  I'm sick having friends going 'DON'T invite him he's so annoying' or 'DON'T invite her she's a bitch'.  Like I don't even know.  And I'm ranting.  And in the background my brother is practicing a skit really loudly.  I'm missing a sock.  My foot is thus cold.  I feel soooo meh.  Don't even ask what meh is.  I don't know.  And I was like smiling when I was walking home, right?  And this bitch that was in my class in elementary school was sitting on her front steps.  And she sees me and is like, "What are YOU smiling about?"  I almost said something along the lines of, "Because I don't have any STDS, I can smile WITHOUT blowing all my money on drugs, and I've never been arrested."  But I didn't.  I just gave her the nastiest look I could WHILE still smiling.  It was like scary clown look.  My day has gone progressively downhill.