Looking Back

Wow so it's gotten to the point where I've been blogging for over a year, so I took the time to look back at some of the posts from a year ago.  I looked at the entries that were closest to today's date, a year ago, and found one on April 5th that made me laugh a bit.  It was a list of things I was thankful for and what made me happy-- it was interesting to see what mattered to me then, what was the same, and what was radically different.  So, I think it's time to do a similar kind of list, just for fun.  Here it goes, things that make me happy/that I'm thankful for:

1.  My family and my friends (love them all)

2.  Drama (play, not high school shit)  

3.  Music (=my life)

4.  High school (for being halfway decent)

5.  Playing stylist for friends (SO FUN!  Seriously, I love it...)

6.  Inside jokes (I'm riding the purple jellyfish, and Bob's fish, I can build a coffin in a day, sex is survival...)

7.  Sleep (It can be in short supply sometimes)

8.  Strawberry-kiwi lipgloss (Practically impossible to be moody when you're wearing the stuff)

9.  IMing people until LATE on school nights (Interesting conversations always result)

10.  Role playing (Sometime more interesting than real life-- certainly better than doing homework)

11.  Writing (whatever)

12.  Singing loudly when no one can hear

13.  Sweatpants and those David and Goliath cotton pants (so comfortable)

14.  Fan fiction (Dramione all the way...so fluffy to read)

15.  People who trust you with their deepest secrets

16.  People you can trust with your deepest secrets

17.  Falling asleep on someone's shoulder (on friends on bus rides and such)

18.  Second chances and forgiveness

19.  Fuzzy socks

20.  The people that nod and smile even if you're telling them the same story for the fifth time in a row (or 11th)

21.  Friends you can fangirl over people with

22.  Random txt messages from friends in the middle of boring class sending you their horoscope for the day and then spending the rest of the class trying to figure out what it means

23.  Laughing, giggling, and spinning

24.  People that know you well enough that they can predict exactly what you're thinking about over AIM, and what you're doing (slightly weird, still cool)  

25.  Changing significantly over the period. of a year (who wants to stay the same forever, anyways?

26.  Mint gum

27.  Getting paid to do things that you actually enjoy (like working at an arts camp)

28.  Listening to the same song over and over and over and over again

29.  Playing dress up (for plays, just randomly, or because of friends)

30.  Lists of random things that no one reads anyways.

Film, and Stuff

So, I took a script writing class and today we shot two scripts.  One was mine so it was really cool to see people act it out.  There was professional equipment and a pair of professional actors so it was like insane.  My friend is in Arizona and it's 89 degrees there.  It snowed this morning.  I am jealous.  I had two short days that I spent hanging out with friends (playing Guitar Hero and riding balloons and doing random things like that) and teching.  My friend is bugging me about things on AIM and taking unfair advantage because he knows I'm tired and will tell him things that I wouldn't say if I was awake.  So, I think I'll sign off-- the three hour time difference is making me be stupid.  Remind me to not IM people at midnight.   

Confused

So, I haven't updated in a while.  But like lots of stuff is going on that I'm just not going to go into detail about.  There's been just the random stupid stuff, like having to run three miles in gym (not fun).  And then I'm just confused about other stuff-- like I said that high school stuff was much more interesting than middle school stuff, but it's also way less straightforward.  Like, even when things are simple when it meets the eye, they usually aren't.  And sometimes single isn't really single.  Even worse, if you're plagued with the shadow of 'just my close girl friend' you're totally screwed over.  Like, sometimes people are so dense that not only will they never see you as anything different, but they also burden you with all of their relationship problems.  And, either you can be a bitch when they ask your opinion about girls they like and be like 'no she's a bitch that doesn't like you- she's just leading you on' or you can give actual advice so that they go and get with someone else.  It's confusing-- what's the right thing to do, really?  And then it seems like all of my friends are shadowing or going to special schools in the middle of nowhere.  They need to do what's best for them, but really, I hate being deserted.  Even better, one of my guy friends has taken to going, 'you don't understand' to me whenever I comment on his un-relationship woes, and the stupid parties he goes to.  Well, I understand that the parties he goes to are a big deal ('you have to go or you aren't invited again'), but I also understand that like all that anyone does at the parties is get drunk and act stupid.  So he complains about the people at the parties, but then gets all mad whenever I ask him why he bothers to go.  And then, when he talks about how he has un-relationship problems and stuff he has the gall to tell me that 'I don't understand what it's like'.  Okay, now this really pisses me off, he assumes he knows me well enough to say 'you've never had a problem getting over someone, this is so complicated you don't get it'.  It's like, times like this I just want to turn around and be, "FUCK YOU", but I'm not that kind of girl, you know? Even worse, I've blown up at so many people for silly things that don't matter.  Why do I have to be such a bitch?  Comment.  It was a long bitchfest, I know.     

Me In a Word

Today I got in a disagreement with a friend, James.  He said that I was a neek (combination of nerd and geek).  I told him that I wasn't.  So I checked with a girl friend of mine, who added that I was a neek, only I was emo as well, so I was really neekmo.  Then I checked with another guy friend (I'll call him..hmm....I'll call him David).  I asked him to give me a one word label, so he said, "smart or crazy or entertaining. "  I explained that they weren't labels, and he had to choose one, but he just responded with, "Just choose one, then."  So, adding his words to defining me, I'm neekmoartzyning.  What's your word?  Comment and let me know!  

Why do I do this, again?

Today was the first performance of the one act.  With the exception of someone forgetting their lines (not me or any of my friends, thank goodness), it went well.  The audience really liked me.  This is so much different from when I was a narrator.  Because, no one really likes or dislikes narrators...they're just...there, you know?  So, it was a nice change.  I guess all the girl lessons from my guy friends paid off.  My guy friend at one point actually went, "You aren't working your boobs and hips enough, you need to work your walk like THIS," and then proceeded to strut his stuff.  Between changing in the same back hall as a guy friend (long story that ended in someone mistaking the entire situation, thinking it was something very...unseemly...that it wasn't), same guy friend commenting on how he could tell if I was cold or not by looking at specific body part-- it's a disadvantage to the leotard (the pervert), a different guy friend commenting on how he'd make a good drag queen, being tickled and poked by all three of them, and other things...it's been a weird play.  But, I'm glad I did it.  It certainly is an interesting experience.  Comment, please!

Lather, Rinse, Repeat

Sometimes it seems like life gets into too much of a pattern, like, when you can say without a doubt what you'll be doing at any given time in the next 1, 2, even three weeks.  That's when thing get boring and tedious.  I usually find this at least a couple times a year, and when I do I try to do something-- anything, to break the monotony.  If I have money to burn,  go out an get a crazy outfit and some insanely bright makeup.  If I don't have money I do something else...throw a party, tell a secret, change an aspect of my personality (not huge, just like loosening up a bit around certain people or whatever).  Whatever I can do so that things aren't same old, same old.  What do you do?  (I've already done the things listed above wayy to much, and life is getting terribly monotonous in some ways.)  Comment and tell me!